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Seven days clean.
It may not seem like much
But to me it means the world.

Seven days without self-mutilation.
The last cut turning into a pink ribbon scar
Looking worse than it did before.

I'm not ashamed of it.
The only reason it stays hidden,
Well is in case I can't keep myself together anymore.
Each bracelet is assurance that no one will know.
But one taken off for each day I'm okay.

When someone does see it
A simple lie comes out.
My cat scratched me,
They immediately buy it.

Seven days and not a single problem.
People may think it's nothing,
When in all reality it means
One day I will be strong
That I can overcome it all.
Just as the poem says I haven't cut in seven days(actually now it's been longer) and I'm proud that I've been able to stay strong that long.
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franny123 Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2012  Student Writer
:D That's great! Stay strong.

Cutting... Seems addicting. I'm still a kid, and I sort of used to cut. It was really stupid of me. It was unpleasant at first, but after doing it a few more times, it was actually sort of nice. There was a time when I couldn't stand not cutting for at least a day. I remember pinching my arm during class or scraping at it with a house-key. I'm really immature, I know. It became some sort of habit for me. It was an odd habit that took longer to overcome than start. I started to find things that were sharper, from scratching myself with a pen edge, to a scissor, to getting a screwdriver and using a sharpener's blade to cut. (Which was sharper than I first anticipated. :| ) I didn't want to die, but I cut my arms just for the heck of it. I don't know why, it just was. Then I realized it was harder to stop than I thought it was. It wasn't a hobby, no. A hobby, I can stop if I wanted to. It was something I couldn't really stop all that easily. My friends that knew about it thought I was attention-whoring, or at least, I think they thought that. I tried to stop since I knew my friends got upset and mad whenever I did it.

It annoys me that some people think self-harm is cool. That pisses me off. It is not. Not at all. Not in the slightest. It is not "fun." Sigh.

It's odd, though, even now that I've quit, whenever I'm upset, I want to rip my arm open from the elbow to the wrist and bleed out. My mind's weird like that, even though I've already stopped and I never really cut deep enough to be dangerous. Maybe I wanted to give cutting deep a try but quit too early on to realize it.

I guess it really was an addiction.

Thanks for the poem. And again, stay strong!
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Xakriuth Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2012
strength to you, friend.
i struggled with cutting myself for nearly a decade, and i know it is a hard addiction to overcome.
people may try to tell you its not, but it is, but that doesn't make you weak.
you will be able to overcome it if you keep believing in yourself.
i did, and i haven't cut myself in over 2 years.
its a good feeling to have, and i know you will have it too.
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ElizabethTamara Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2012
Both myself and friends of mine have struggled with depression and self mutilation. I know it's a way to feel in control and let pain out, but it is never the right answer to your problems. I actually started writing poetry a couple years ago as an outlet for how I felt, instead of self mutilation. Your poem is great, and I encourage you to keep writing and to get your feelings with writing, instead of doing harmful things! Stay strong! :)
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unusedEmotion Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2012  Student Writer
I don't and have never cut myself, but my closest friend used to do it all the time so I have a glimpse of understanding on how hard it might be not to do it, good job and good luck
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PoisonedPlum Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2012  Student Writer
Does your friend still do it? And thank you.
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unusedEmotion Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2012  Student Writer
Well, I don't think he does, though I think he stopped (after months of hard work). I don't know for sure because he alternated between his wrists and his calves. So he might still. No reason to thank me.
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